Poof.I doubt anyone missed me, but I still want to let you guys know about my .. situation. Sounds worse than it really is, but I haven't been able to get online because of it so I just want to let you all know I'm not neglecting you or whatever (talking to the online friends in particular here <3) I just feel bad for .. suddenly disappearing!
I'll try to explain what's going on, it's a long story but I'mma try to keep it short xD
3 years ago I got the glandular fever. Kissing disease? (Not sure about the english name..) and, like I said, long story short, I still have it. I still suffer from it every day. Suffer as in, being extremely tired all day every day. And lots of headaches. A day without a headache is very rare. And all this started three years ago. The doctor kept telling me to rest but obviously that didn't work. In the meanwhile I got real bad stomach aches & my back started hurting too, this started 2 years ago and my back became a real issue a few months ago. So. When school started I stopped working, knowing that school + my job would be a killer for me. Sooo I thought that would help, you know. No more job, but it didn't, it only got worse because of school (long days, lots of homework. I'm at an Art Academy studying Graphic Design) And then my colleague told me to go to this 'special' doctor.. So I did. Another long story short:
There was something wrong with my spine, some of the bones weren't in the right position. Same with my neck. My head's placed wrong on my body (wtfXD) and some other stuff, but most important, I had poison in my body. And that's the reason why the glendular fever is STILL in my body, and the poison makes it even worse. But fortunately I have medicines to get rid of that poison. After 3 years of being tired, thinking it's just me, it was SO good to hear there really IS something wrong. So I got medicines
I'm not feeling the effect yet, but I'm going to see the doctor next week again for a check and she'll tell me if I'm better than I was when I first came. Who knows, I'm really curious. I'm so fed up of always being tired. Always having to leave parties too early. Always having to tell your friends you can't stay too late because if you do you'll be dead the next 3 days. Always fighting to keep your eyes open. People never understand how I feel, they think I'm boring because I never party, I never drink, I never go out, I always leave early, etc. I've lost friends because of this, and I know who my true friends are.When one of my classmates asked me what was going on, I explained. She was like "Oh yeah, I have that too sometimes" FUCK NO! NO. NOT SOMETIMES!! EVERY. DAY. FOR 3!!! YEARS! It's driving me crazy. I was almost sinking in some sort of depression. But then the miracle doctor helped me out 8D I'm also seeing the school's psychologist now. It really sounds like I'm a crazy person, like I've gone mad, but I'm just having trouble coping with school and my emotions and stuff. Sounds so dramatic xD
Okay this isn't really short, sorry :c But the combination of this .. and my first year at this school is just making it impossible for me to keep up with dA, FA and the other websites. MSN&AIM also, just haven't had time to get on :c Plus I now have 3 rats to take care of, besides our 2 dogs. Pets come first! Love 'em though!
And artwise.. Wow. I haven't drawn anything since.. I can't even remember. I just haven't had the motivation :/ But the motivation is back, and I can't wait to actually start drawing again. Ofcourse I didn't completely stop drawing, I drew things for school and I doodled during the lessons, but nothing serious. Hope that'll change soon.
I can't promise anything, can't promise if I can be more active, but I really am going to try my best. I miss being online :c
On a happier note. I CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS! So excited already, best time of the year!
It always puts me in a good mood n__n And the Christmas songs... Ah! 8'DWell, that's it x3 I hope to submit something on here soon, it's about time!
If you read all this, thank you ;__; means a lot!
What about you guys? How're you all doing?
Looking forward to Christmas as well? Let me know, I wanna hear about youuu! <3
~ Cayaa.
PS: Sorry for sounding.. selfish.. Emoish, sorry. I just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you so much if you read all of it! <3
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